i feel this song. "RUNAWAY LOVE by ludacris". emotions running through. everytime i hear this song i feel my tears rushing out. part of my life was like theirs too. when i was 13 years old. my older brother would alwaes try to strike mi in the night when everyone is asleep. trying to get his way thru. stripping mi if i were fast asleep. i was so afraid i jus lied there awake just to make sure he dun touch mi. i tout everything would end soon. i reallie hope he'll stop his nonsense... wake up from his senses n realise im his younger sister. but everything didnt just end. it got worst in fact. becus i didnt slp in de night, i slept in de afternoon tinking it would be alright. everyone is awake and at home. i slept. but still when im asleep he came into my room lifting up my shirts. it was that day my mum saw. she shouted at my brother. my brother just walked off. i thought tis has finally end. but he still continue. i could not take it anymore at that time. tis nonsense has been going on n on everydae for months. i told myself. jus end it. end tis life. sick of tis shit. but i didnt have the gut. but eventually everything stopped. i tink prayers worked. but a few years later when my parents are fighting every night for divorced. my dad tried to strike mi just to spike my mum. from than on i dunno wad's love. been searching for love everywhere. n very naive. dunnoe wad's real n wad's not. thou my tinking can be very matured. but talk about love. i noe nothing about it. i fall for someone very easily n is willing to sarcrifice everything for him. but recently i learnt a lesson thru a heart breaker. tolerating may not end up anywhere. it'll jus give u painful memories n something to regret for life. now i regret. i pity de gal. im sorry. but i noe he's jus gonna cheat on her for life. i've finally open up my eyes n choose carefully. i dun wanna end up like them or my parents. i have to figure out wad i need.

bEebEe wishhed*
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