my ex lover called todae.
telling mi he misses mi.
cus i've been nice to him.
truthfully i missed him too.
but i told him no..
he didnt appreciates mi in de past.
so there's nth i could hope from him.
gave him chances he didnt take it.
but still.. i told him we are still frens.
n im glad i made tis choice.
=)

bEebEe wishhed*
2:45 AM

Tuesday, February 20, 2007
TURF day

todae went to TURF CLUB with my fren.
went for 4 RACE before heading home.
its quite interesting.
we went there to bet on any horse we find cute.
total loss was 500$.
but it was damn fun.
im gonna go there again if there's singapore match.

went out with another fren to LAGUNA.
play golf. rich man's hobby.
gotto learn. =)
learning so much.

bEebEe wishhed*
1:21 AM

Sunday, February 18, 2007
RUNAWAY LOVE

i feel this song. "RUNAWAY LOVE by ludacris". emotions running through. everytime i hear this song i feel my tears rushing out. part of my life was like theirs too. when i was 13 years old. my older brother would alwaes try to strike mi in the night when everyone is asleep. trying to get his way thru. stripping mi if i were fast asleep. i was so afraid i jus lied there awake just to make sure he dun touch mi. i tout everything would end soon. i reallie hope he'll stop his nonsense... wake up from his senses n realise im his younger sister. but everything didnt just end. it got worst in fact. becus i didnt slp in de night, i slept in de afternoon tinking it would be alright. everyone is awake and at home. i slept. but still when im asleep he came into my room lifting up my shirts. it was that day my mum saw. she shouted at my brother. my brother just walked off. i thought tis has finally end. but he still continue. i could not take it anymore at that time. tis nonsense has been going on n on everydae for months. i told myself. jus end it. end tis life. sick of tis shit. but i didnt have the gut. but eventually everything stopped. i tink prayers worked. but a few years later when my parents are fighting every night for divorced. my dad tried to strike mi just to spike my mum. from than on i dunno wad's love. been searching for love everywhere. n very naive. dunnoe wad's real n wad's not. thou my tinking can be very matured. but talk about love. i noe nothing about it. i fall for someone very easily n is willing to sarcrifice everything for him. but recently i learnt a lesson thru a heart breaker. tolerating may not end up anywhere. it'll jus give u painful memories n something to regret for life. now i regret. i pity de gal. im sorry. but i noe he's jus gonna cheat on her for life. i've finally open up my eyes n choose carefully. i dun wanna end up like them or my parents. i have to figure out wad i need.

bEebEe wishhed*
10:53 PM

Monday, February 12, 2007
bitchy day

i cannot imgaine wad i did todae.
i spit on someone right on his damn clothes.
he's someone who tinks he cld play every gal he see's.
i seriously despised him to de MAX.
trying his sweet talks.
but too bad la. sweet talks dun work on mi anymore.
once bitten, twice shy. by someone i trust.
got cheated again n again. no more second time.
after scoldin him. i spat at his clothes.
drive off. i feel so shiok after that.
i seriously dun hafta count on any guys.
talking bout love is jus bullshit la.
in front saying love. behind doin shits.
mayb have to experience than can turn wiser.
any guys trying to talk bullshits with mi.
i'll slap ur face.
tell mi what im becoming to.
i dunnoe cus i dun give a damn if i've offended u.
so wad if ur rich. driving lexus.
big deal? i do it to u i'll do it to others.
try mi assholes.

bEebEe wishhed*
11:25 AM